Freewriting Mindful Music Exercise
Hindrances – Recognise, release, return
Desire for sense pleasure – rooted energy of compulsion
Grasping and wanting, seeking endlessly to fill emptiness,
Not wanting to End/Sense of completeness when ended.
Recognise the recognition… acknowledge the obstruction,
A version of Aversion, ill will… stagnation, sleepiness and low energy.
Restlessness… even mountains get restless.
Questioning Ruminations… the paralysis of analysis “What are you doing here anyway?”
Hindrances are manifestations, invest in investigation and gentle encouragement.
Do not take universal challenges personally.
Strive for restful resources for transformation.
The voices of critic changes into a tyrant darkshadow. Judging-Mind.
Unhelpful thinking/thoughtpatterns causes defensive shutdown,
lack of safety, corroding self-stability, manifests a state of experience and awareness of arising thoughts are unforgiving, turning into taskmaster perfectionist disguised as evaluating critic – an attack on worth as human being itself, undermining existentially, has to be able to recognise itself to know it is there, and to learn to not give the critic attention is to dismiss and counter the cruelty of the critic. Soften it, offer kindness, with awareness the berating subsides upon hearing the boundaries. Exploring behind the wall of the body of electrified anxiety and fear. Uncomfortable insecurities drop in. Hear the doubts, let it dwell, don’t distort the suffering, the deficient sense of self. Once the thought is present, asking yourself what you’re feeling at this point, sensations in the body, the impact of trembling heat… offer it kindness.
Potential Mix: Understanding the preparation for answering a calling, limits expanding unfulfilled, unrealised dreams yearning for belief, for the birth of an achievement, the pleasure of mysteries established by a restless spirit, being deserving to be useful, with honesty an established calling…help.
Where do you notice your innercritic?